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[the week ahead] Deep Feelings & Questions

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April 8-14

This week, we further connect to one of April’s main experiences- floating in between the dualities of endings and beginnings.  Governed by the number 9, this month is about recognizing the completion of a journey: relationships coming to a close, ending a specific behavior or thought, finishing a job or project and prepping a new one.  We stay focused on the new experiences that will arise.  There’s a gorgeous saying I always turn to in times of starting and finishing,

“Barn’s burnt down…Now I can see the moon.”

We place more emphasis on our emotions this week.  Driven by our feelings, we engage our desire to investigate and question our current circumstances.  WHY? and HOW? pepper our dialogue and thoughts, particularly in the beginning of the week.  It’s an attempt to bring sense to the endings and come up with a plan for May, but now’s not the time.  Stay present.  Leave room for the mystery and take each day slowly.  Our plans will be solidified by April 21^st, when a new moon arrives to illuminate and answer all of our current questioning.    

May will begin a brand new 1-9 numerological cycle, governed by the year’s 5 energy of new experiences.  In many ways, May will feel like we’re stepping into a new life.  Until then, we will form a deep connection with our new reality throughout this month & prepare for it by letting go of lingering hindrances.  When we focus on the old, with our gaze turned to the past, we become near-sighted, we miss little details that have always been there.  As we shift our eyes toward the future, things shine in a new way.  We see ourselves and our path with new perspective. 

Burn down the barn…the stars are waiting to be noticed…      

 

[the week ahead] Mercury Turns Direct, April Emerges

April 1-7

This week, Mercury turns direct and we welcome April, a month ruled by the number 9.  Mercury resuming its forward rotation on April 4 sets us on the right path- the one we've been ruminating on and planning for since early March.  Now, we take action.  In addition, the 9 numerology influences the culmination of our goals and experiences since 2012's arrival, rounding out the first third of our year.   Look at the adventures we have had so far!  What have you learned?  What are you most looking forward to?  What are you putting the most energy toward right now?  In order to clear the road for what's ahead, we recognize the loose ends still need to be tied.  Friday's full moon brings a beautiful fullness to our week, allowing us to reflect on what we've accomplished so far and recognize how it influences our action and desired future.  

We come out of the Mercury Retrograde assured of the direction in which we are headed.  Like an arrow, we aim for a specific target.  After three weeks of observing from the shore, we are ready to make waves.  Thoughts become action.  Action brings powerful decision making that will assure lasting changes.  In order to move forward into May unfettered and clear-sighted, we are ruthless in recognizing what is and is not working for us.  Mercury's insights have brought us the gift of complete and utter confidence in where we are headed.  We are making decisions determined by instinct, not impulse.    

April is universally a 9 month.  The energies here surround conclusions, resolutions and oneness.  This is the month in which all aspects of our being align to form a complete picture.  It is a deeply spiritual vibration, one that connects our physical, spiritual, mental and emotional states with the material plane so that we can fully achieve our goals.  April also brings conclusion to a journey we started in January.  Throughout the month, we will walk the line between past and present, acknowledging and untangling ourselves from old ideas and old situations.  The 9 numerology influences our desire to resolve situations- loose ends will be tied up in this month.  This translate into experiences on the material plane that may include the ending or beginning of a job, tying up loose ends of a relationship, ending a negative thought process on which you have relied, embarking on a new hobby or a new behavior.  We will wipe the slate clean for May.  

Stay present but intent on where you are headed.  We're getting there...

Mercury Retrograde: Week 3

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March 25-31

The theme throughout this week, the third week of Mercury’s Retrograde, will be seeing the old versus the new.  We will feel a stronger distinction between these two realities.  Up until this point, we have experienced an overlapping of these two worlds as we’ve negotiated what comes with us and what falls away.  The image that always comes to my mind is bits of sediment and rock crumbling off the side of a cliff; the main structure is still intact, but the parts not adding to its security naturally and easily fall away.  This week, we sharply turn a corner into our new state, and the old state will feel very much in rear-view.   The 5 numerology governing this year, has propelled our motivation for change and driven us toward experiences of freedom.  This week, we will see the meaning of these experiences coalesce, and get a stronger image of our new destination, and the plan to get there. 

This week, we’ll see the options before us.  Throughout March, we have clarified and revised the direction in which we are going.  As we move forward, we’ll find that our definitions, our desires, goals and connection to our emotional being will undergo profound change, for we are making room for a new state of being.  The Mercury Retrograde is not yet over; we are still undergoing adjustments and correction before we fully immerse ourselves in a plan, let alone a new reality.  But what’s changed is our awareness.  Our vision of the new road ahead is more complete.  Excitement and an “I can” attitude is building.  Once Mercury turns direct on April 4^th, we will feel even more capable and more sure of where we are going.

The opposite extreme of clarity is confusion, a typical state during a retrograde.  If you find yourself in the camp of not knowing where you are going, what you are doing and even what you want, this is a normal part of Mercury’s lessons.  It’s okay to exist in this state of confusion- give over to the not knowing, rather than trying to resist it or force information to come to you.  Lay all your potential directions in front of you without the pressure to choose, just dance with them and see which feels like the strongest partner- the one that moves with you and for you, rather than against you.  No one likes to have their toes stepped on or have too strong a leader.  It is always about achieving an easy give and take, especially with yourself.

Love & Light 

 

 

Mercury Retrograde: Week Two + Spring Equinox

seeds to be planted. image found here. 

March 18-24

I mentioned last week that the experience of this Mercury Retrograde (the first of three this year), is a "directon correction."  Since entering 2012's 5 year, every direction has felt right.  With a more expressive openness to unknown experiences and an ability to move with changing directions (as opposed to resisting them), our compass's true north has been quite flexible since January.  This "direction correction" is about clarifying the paths ahead of us that are open and inviting versus those with obstacles.  It will become clear to us where we want to channel our energy.  This week, we reflect on the accumulation of our experiences since the beginning of the year, welcome a new season and bring our spirituality closer into alignment with a material reality.  

On Tuesday, spring arrives!  This season's energy is beginnings and future growth.  Consider if you are generating a vast amount of energy toward something that has the capacity to bloom in spring?  Or are you poking at something that is moving away from you, that melted away in winter?  Are you giving roots to what you really want, by watering it a little bit each day?  Or are you saturating it with so much water, effectively drowning it before it has a chance to grow?  Regardless of your action, this week we will better understand the choices we make and what we can correct to support progress and movement.  Even if they feel uncomfortable, trust these choices.  Discomfort is a biproduct of healing and when we leave certain things behind, it hurts for a minute because it was familiar, but it allows space for new growth.  Challenge your pre-conceived notions about your capabilities.  We are coming into a season of germination.  Spring's energy will positively impact our self-expression, self-confidence and our ultimate direction.  This week, we start to sow the soil for what's to come.  

Also this week, Pisces enters the mix of Mercury's infleunce this Friday, awakening our inner spirituality and encouraging us to listen to our inner truths.  Sink into your heart space.  Stear clear of the mind's black and white thinking and the desire to categorize, deduce and analyze the experiences and opportunities around you.  Just quiet your mind and sink into the deepest part of your gut where instinct lives.  Stay open.  Stay faithful.  Again, you're not required to make any decisions.  Instead, you are connecting with all your possibilities and seeing the beauty in each of them.  

 With Spring's growth, Mercury's clarity, March's energy of giving & receiving/visualizing & manifesting, the possibilities to grasp and cultivate the future we want are ours for the taking.  I'm excited for all of us and can't wait to see where this year takes each and every one of you.

Love & Light to you all.   

[the week ahead] Mercury Retrograde Helps Clarify Our Direction

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March 11-17

The 8 numerology vibrates with the energy of giving and receiving- it’s one of the principles that governs the number and our March experience.  The number’s shape represents balance; it is the symbol for infinity, turned upright, two equals coming together.  Throughout the month, we’ll feel a desire to bring opposites into harmony.  This may translate into experiences of turning thoughts into action, paying attention to how much you give others in relationship to yourself, recognizing your balance of work versus leisure or simply how often you balance a negative thought with a positive affirmation.  Seeing the similarities in opposites, rather than the inherent dualities, is part of our 8 experience.

There is so much positive energy in our favor right now:  the changing season, month’s numerology, and forthcoming retrograde combine to support our new direction.  As I’ve mentioned, this year is about defining our ultimate purpose with new action- taking risks, thinking grandly and actualizing our plan with new-found intensity.  2012 is filled with new direction!  We carry over last year’s vision of security and combine it with the 5 energy’s courage for bold changes.  A big burst of momentum came today with Daylight’s Savings.  That extra hour of light will continue to be a source of motivation and rejuvination.  The path we’ll follow for the next 4 years has emerged from the shadow and asks to be reflected upon.

Monday, March 12^th, Mercury turns retrograde until April 4^th.  This retrograde helps us align with our new spiritual path.  We’ve dipped our toe into the shallow end of our new reality since March 1^st, beginning our “direction correction”.   A retrograde is a time to pause.  It is a time to address where we are presently.  It is not a time to make major decisions, rather it is a period of transition.  This retrograde will position us for a major shift come April 4^th, but in the meantime, we are encouraged to enjoy and adjust to the intensity 2012 has brought us.  Take the next three weeks to congratulate how far you’ve come since this time last year.  Find ways to clarify for yourself (and the universe!) what direction you see yourself, your business, your relationships or your dreams going.  Write it down.  Draw it out.  Sing it or dance it- whatever helps bring it to life in your mind, heart and physical space.  The retrograde will help us consider a plan, but we won’t solidify or act on this plan until April.  For now, enjoy the magic and the dreaming.  Resonate with that energy of giving and receiving- everything in infinte motion, everything balance. 

 *love & light to you all

[the MONTH ahead] March's Call To Action

Since March 1, nearly everyone I've spoken to has felt February's heaviness lift and dissolve!  It's been the most beautiful shift to observe and take part in.  All of February's gloominess, antsy-ness, indecision and all-consuming thoughts have been turned into confident action, courage and optimism.  With March's new energy, we've been able to let go of obstacles and see the opportunity that lies ahead.  The 8 vibration is one of authority and power, with a desire to guide and direct; it's no wonder so many of us feel like we've tapped into a new energy reserve, pocketing the feeling of determination and planning our next move.  It's not that February didn't serve its purpose- that slight pause of motion allowed us to face the behaviors and negative thinking that held us back.  By doing so, we've allowed ourselves to push forward with less baggage and a stronger awareness of self.  

March is influenced by the 8 energy which means that the cerebreal thinking of February will manifest into material form.  It is an extroverted number, so expect to be pushed toward collaboration or urged to work with a group.  This is a month in which we can expect to see the fruits of our labor begin to blossom and bear.  It also means that thoughts become action at a faster and more intense speed.  Intention is everything.  As long as you put positive, declaritive energy behind your goal, it has the chance to emerge just as you imagine.  The 8 energy is the feeling of, "what you sow, shall you reap."  Likewise, if you find yourself stuck in a rut of doubt and negative thoughts, what you hope to see bloom will end up wilting. Keep your affirmations and thoughts positive.  Expect everything you desire with an unedited, enthusiastic attitude.   

This week, Thursday's full moon brings answers and clarity to the options we found ourselves negotiating in February.  This is a week to write down, shout out loud, draw out- whatever is your medium of choice- all of the things you hope to manifest in March and even throughout the year.  The Mercury Retrograde that comes next week on March 12th, will help us map out a plan, generating more certainty about the steps needed to get exactly what we want.  

What do you hope to manifest this season?

[the week ahead] Releasing February, Welcoming March!

source for this dreamy photo by Irene Suchocki

 February 26- March 3

For many of us, these past couple of weeks have been filled with uncertainty.  Privately, I've felt as if alone at sea in a tiny canoe, with one paddle and a vast ocean.  Reaching the crest of what will soon be my new personal year (numerologically marked by your birthday), I've been nutty.  Really nutty.  Like, overwhelmed by doubt with dives into anxiety.  February's 7 energy has continually nudged us into private moments of reflection- the process of collecting your experiences and hearing the lessons in them.  But it can be terrifying, as you float between past, present and future.  I quit my full-time job nearly a year ago and jumped into the world of freelancing, not simply exchanging steadinnes for, well, rockiness, but also establishing myself in two new fields.  Balance and confidence ebb and flow more intensely.  And lately, I've been ridiculously hard on myself.  

 But then I kept hearing it in the air, from many of you- hasn't this week been intense? why do i feel so anxious?  i don't have my normal pool of energy, i usually have.  i don't know what i'm doing or where i'm going.  A bit of light started to shine.  I wasn't going crazy thinking that I was alone in this journey.  We were all experiencing February's wave of intensity, as this month has been about an excavation of our spirit and goals.  And then one of my favorite bloggers and creative inspirations, Bri Emery of Design Love Fest, wrote what's been heavy on her heart for the past couple of weeks, adding another voice to the chorus of our shared experience.  I was reminded of my intention in creating this site- to offer a space where you find comfort in knowing that others are right there with you, connected in energy to your journey.  After all, we share the same moon & stars. 

A healing is not always a gentle, easy process, and that's been our focus throughout February.  It's uncomfortable.  Issues float to the surface.  You're forced to see them, to confront them.  Most of the time it feels like things are being scraped or torn and in some ways they are.  No wonder it's been a rough month, right? As we let go of parts of our self that we've always known (behaviors, reactions, ideas, relationships), we eliminate crutches we've come to count on.  But we're making room to evolve, to let in fresh air, to breathe life into new ideas and new ways of being.  Good ol' fashion growing pains.  

With March's entrance comes a bit more balance.  Instead of being on the side of the see-saw that's up in the air, our feet touch the ground.  This Thursday, we'll exchange February's realizations for March's manifestations.  Our discoveries become actions!  Thoughts are set in motion!  With the first Mercury Retrograde on March 12th, we are poised for our first breakthrough of this freedom-seeking, bound-for-change 5 year and set sail in a new direction that aligns deeply with our spiritual path.  In these last few days of quiet, still February, stay open to the messages in your heart.  Release your concerns, ask that they be replaced with adventures and, as always, make time for gratitude.  Can't wait to share more about March's 8 energy next week.  Until then....love and light to you all.  

 

[the week ahead] Tuesday's New Moon, Neptune in Pisces

image of Neptune found here

February 19-25

Moment of truth, this has not been a banner week for me: daydreaming when I should be focusing, filled with doubt rather than gratitude or confidence, drifting into the past and future when I should be present.  When I lived in New Zealand, my friend and spiritual teacher, Jacqui, informed me that the 30 day span before your brithday is always a tricky time.  For those of us particularly energy sensitive, those 30 days can be rough as we shift, align and make room for the new path ahead of us. My birthday is in nine days.  It has indeed been a trying time.

February's 7 numerology speaks to the duality of silence vs. speech.  The lesson this month has been about knowing when to speak and when to be still.  It's a month in which we investigate our own ideas, misconceptions, goals and dreams.  Everything has pointed to a new level of spiritual growth and awareness.  Sometimes this feels like melancholy or sadness, but it's only a result of letting go of those things no longer serving us as we ascend to new heights of self-awareness.

This week, Tuesday's New Moon helps illuminate what's ahead. Neptune moves into Pisces, bringing strong messages of purpose.  It reminds us of the importance of individuality.  The 7 energy is only strengthened by the Neptune & Pisces union, pushing us to champion what makes us unique.  Their relationship helps us feel the new energy emerging.  We'll soon see how our new vision contributes to bringing our ideas to life.  What will unfold for us?  Through finding silence and stillness, we are able to be selective.  In these last nine days of the month, we will start to connect with new thoughts and behaviors that help determine the action needed for our goals. 

Remember, that in this journey the opposite is always true...and it was certainly true for me last week.  I was weighed down by the opposite experiences- horribly indecisive, overwhelmed by choice, not owning my individuality by comparing myself to others and consumed by white noise. I can already feel the correction of these misplaced thoughts taking place. And naturally, I blame it on my birthday (and new personal year) being right around the corner.  I know it's simply a result of being open to the new space I'm entering- I'm anticipating it with deep excitement, but also frantically trying to wrap things up.  Last year was about making changes- this year is about bringing those ideas to life. 

Love and light to you all. 

[the week ahead] A Turning Point- Seeing Our Path With New Eyes

February 12-18

Last week’s full moon revealed a new sense of purpose that will aid us in unfolding more layers of our spiritual purpose.  These layers will not only reveal the totality in our journey, but will also help dissolve previously held misconceptions about our capabilities.  January & February of 2012 have the same numerology as November & December of 2011, except that we are governed by the year’s 5 energy instead of 2011’s 4 energy.  In many ways, we’ve carried over last year’s vision into this year, breathing in the winds of change, freedom and new discoveries.  This week represents a turning point in our assessment of our goals and desires. 

The influence of the 5 energy throughout 2012 encourages us to not hold on so tightly to a strict plan.  Those of you who know me, know that one of my stock phrases is, “Leave room for the mystery.”  Don’t make your visions so specific that you close yourself off to opportunities that look slightly different, but hold the same rewards.    Last year, the 4 energy led us to complete a very specific goal of building structure.  This year, standing atop last year’s foundation, we recognize how easy it is to let go of ideas, projects or relationships in which the return manifests itself too slowly.  We want experiences to bring a quick return.  Because our focus is on freedom, change and new experiences, it feels more natural to move on quickly from something that isn’t working.

Don’t get me wrong- this year is not about fleeting experiences, it’s about purposeful experiences.  February’s journey allows us to connect more strongly to our instincts and a new sense of purpose.  This week, we discover a new level of insight into our journey and reassess our goals.  We continue to create moments of stillness, to catch our breath, close our eyes and connect with our instinct.  

Love & light to you all.

[exercise] Visual Meditation: Quieting the Mind

image via www.natgeo.com | "Solar Loops" courtesy of NASA

 

One of the most frequent questions clients ask is, “How do I quiet my mind?”  It’s common for all of us- the monkey mind, swinging from subject to subject.  Your first thought is what you’d like to eat for lunch, which swings to what you ate yesterday, which swings to thoughts about organic produce, which trickles into a daydream about your ideal garden, which jumps to an entirely different subject like following up on that interview, from which you then tumble into thinking about filing your taxes and so on and so forth. 

Too often we exist in a constant state of chatter, held hostage by the mind's diversions.  The mind is an impeccable tool for helping us keep organized, manage a schedule, add and subtract; but it is not where we want to reside.  You don’t want to rest in the mind- rest in your heart space.  Rest in your gut.  This is where instinct lives.  These are the places where intuition grows.

So how do we quiet the mind? 

By asking it to be quiet.  By simply choosing not to dwell in its habitat of white noise.  By finding personal methods of disconnecting from it.  I’m a big believer in creating visual meditations that work for you.  For a long while I tried to simply close my eyes and focus on my breathing, but the deeply visual part of my nature would just create images and the mind would then join, like two mischievous friends encouraging each other to play a prank.    

This is the easiest method.  First, you separate yourself by thanking it for the work it puts in (keeping you organized, remembering a meeting) and ask it to be quiet.  Acknowledge its strengths; move on from its limitations.  Literally say, thank you mind, but you can be quiet now.  Remind yourself that your thoughts don’t control you.  You control your thoughts.    

Another application is to visualize the mind's chatter collecting in order to be released.  Deepen your relationship with your third eye and allow its sight to aid you in your quest for quiet.  

> >  Golden Ball of Light Meditation  

Start by closing your eyes.  Let the mind run for a few minutes.  Visualize all your thoughts meeting in the center of your mind and dissolving to form a giant, gold ball of light.  Shift all your thoughts into this radiant, gold light. 

Allow quiet to simply enter, to easily exist.  Focus on your breathing.  Connect each inhale and exhale: in through your nose, out through your nose.  Visualize that ball of light.  Remain gently focused on it luminescence, its healing power.

When it feels natural, move onto picturing the golden ball transforming into one long, bright line that extends up down the length of your central meridian, out of the top of your head and all the way down through your feet.  Continue to focus on your breathing.  If monkey mind chatter sets in again, focus on your breathing and repeat.  Continue to connect to your breathing.  With each exhale, release the chatter.  With each inhale, take in serenity.  As always, thank the spirit realm for their healing power. 

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